Welcome to 2018! The year of wonderful things, the year of love and the year of amazing experiences! Fake. Somehow I thought that starting the new year at my boyfriends house sitting in his bedroom alone and drinking would be the start to the best year so far. We sat and talked and once it … Continue reading Yet another heart break.
As i sit in my bed on the 24th of December 2017, all i seem to think is that Christmas is tomorrow yet i am not excited or thrilled for the big day! Christmas is one of those things were the older you get, the less and less exciting Christmas seems. I have reached a … Continue reading ‘Tis the season to be jolly
My favourite poems from the sun and her flowers written and illustrated by Rupi Kaur "i could be anything in the world but i wanted to be his" "if i'm not the love of your life i'll be the greatest loss instead" "you ask if we can still be friends i explain how a honeybee … Continue reading poetry pt.2
Poetry, like music to my ears, filling my heart with everything content. The way that some simple words can make you feel like everything will be okay. I love simple poetry that beautifully portrays how sometimes life does not go to plan. Rui Kaur the author of the sun and her flowers shows the absolute … Continue reading the sun and her flowers
Bitter sweet, the taste of rain floods all senses. It does not come slowly but all at once, as if the storm that has been building for weeks, has finally hit. I hear the voice calling out to me asking me, telling me, commanding me. The rain keeps flooding in further and further and I … Continue reading bipolar disorder/depressive episodes
I don't want to gross or weird about this but I know that one day I will appreciate the first time I felt love. Some days I wake up so scared and anxious just because I realise that I am so totally physically and mentally in love with this boy and I have never felt … Continue reading Love
So as the year comes to close once again, it is time to review the craziness of 2017. I am sure one day I will be reading over this not remembering anything that happened during the year but to me right now, right here, this year has been everything and more. Lets be frank here, … Continue reading An Update.
Here's the thing, our parents always expect us to obey all their rules until the day we turn a certain number, 18. I find this incredibly stupid especially since we all know that if two teenagers want to do something, they will very much find a way to do it. What's worse is the way … Continue reading parents
I want to write more and more but I feel like there is nothing I really want to write about. Anything that has happened in my life is either too sad to think about again, or brings back too much unresolved pain. I sit in front of my laptop with my fingers on the keys … Continue reading Words
When things get bad, I often try and think of ways to distract myself from the bad. This leads to endless runs up and down my local hill, thinking sweating with help. I, like most teens will sometimes watch tv shows, or maybe if I'm in the mood I will clean my room whilst listening … Continue reading The ukulele
So recently I have been feeling like absolute shit and of course I know that I am possible a little depressed. I know what you are thinking, she is over-reacting once again. But too be fair I have had a shitty last few weeks. My ex-boyfriend who I did love does not love me back, … Continue reading Depression.
I want to help everyone in the world. I want to travel and be one with the earth. I want to volunteer overseas and away from small New Zealand. I want to rescue and revive animals. I want to transform the way the world views things. I want to teach children who deserve to be … Continue reading world.
In life, I believe things always come in cycles. Some times these are bad cycles of despair, sorrow and loss. Others are full of happiness, love and joy. Right now i'm in the despair cycle. Filled with grief and sadness. But that is not what is picking at me. It is the stress I'm facing. … Continue reading Stress & BREAK UPS
Making the most of the teenage years, So you imagined your teen life would be just like the movies. Parties, boys, trouble, it was the dream we all had. Until the unfortunate age where you would soon realise that 'the teen years' may not be the best years of your life despite what your mother … Continue reading The teen years
Every time. A poem by me Every time I close my eyes, I still see you Every time I get good news, I want to tell you Every time I see a bridge, I think of you Every time I cry, It's because of you Every time I look at photos, I'm reminded of you … Continue reading A poem.
Hi there, This is more a reference for me in years to come but i am back after almost 2 years of being non-existent. I thought I would start by saying that I am sorry future me for not updating this. See i have this constant fear that i'll forget everything that has ever happened … Continue reading I’m back
Hello all, Today after a very tiring morning, I thought I better have a little chat about anxiety. For all that don't know what anxiety it is, it is a feeling of unease, fear, panic or nervousness about a certain situation. I only have a very minor case of anxiety but it still affects me … Continue reading Anxiety
Today, i have decided to keep a blog or as some say 'online journal', I specifically chose to do this as i wanted to get my emotions and feelings out of my head and onto somewhere, where I can trust people. I love taking photos and videos, and to most I look like the most … Continue reading Introduction & welcoming